A person who has reached the stage of vairaag starts to feel a certain amount of pain, sadness and disappointment in himself. Before vairaag came into his life, he thought everything was going fine for him. He was aware that he had one or two vices but he felt confident that by performing certain religious rituals like sponsoring prayers and langgars he could clear his negative balance.
After reading the Gurus message the realisation came to him that he was in greater trouble than what he thought.
Maaee man maero bas naahi. (SGGS 632)
ਮਾਈ ਮਨੁ ਮੇਰੋ ਬਸਿ ਨਾਹਿ ॥
Meaning: O mother, I have got this realisation that my mind is not under my control.
Nis baasur bikhian ko dhhavath khaeh bidh rokoh thaahi?
ਨਿਸ ਬਾਸੁਰ ਬਿਖਿਅਨ ਕਉ ਧਾਵਤ ਕਿਹਿ ਬਿਧਿ ਰੋਕਉ ਤਾਹਿ ॥੧॥ ਰਹਾਉ ॥
Meaning: Night and day my mind runs after corruption and sin. How can I restrain it?
In addition to the mind, all my sense organs are also doing their own thing.
Nainoo nakattoo sravanoo rasapath eindhree kehiaa na maanaa. (SGGS 1104)
ਨੈਨੂ ਨਕਟੂ ਸ੍ਰਵਨੂ ਰਸਪਤਿ ਇੰਦ੍ਰੀ ਕਹਿਆ ਨ ਮਾਨਾ ॥੧॥
Meaning: The eyes, nose, ears, tongue and sensory organs of touch do not obey any of my orders.
The eyes are asleep gazing upon the beauty of others. The ears are asleep listening to slander. The tongue is busy chasing after different flavours. The mind is asleep fascinated by Maa-ei-aa.
All my sense organs are not listening to me. In addition to this, I have a zoo inside filled with animals that are also doing their own thing. I have made no attempt to take control of these animalistic tendencies in me.
How can I bring my life back to the right track?
Kiaa jaana kiaa hoeiga ree maaee? (SGGS 357)
ਕਿਆ ਜਾਨਾ ਕਿਆ ਹੋਇਗਾ ਰੀ ਮਾਈ ॥
Meaning: O mother, What will happen to me ?
Eaek na bhareeaa gun kar dhhova.
Meaning: I am not stained by only one sin that I can wash away with one virtue.
Eio kio Kanth piaree hovaa?
The state I am in right now, how can I be acceptable to GOD?
A person in vairaag feels a sense of failure because he has wasted a great opportunity that was bestowed on him by God for a particular purpose. Now he has decided that he is not going to waste any more time. He is going to make all efforts to know how to go about doing what it takes to get his house in order and be acceptable to God.
When he reaches to this stage of real determination to single-mindedly pursue his goal of human life, he is called a Jagiasu.
Surinder Kaur Sohan Singh is a Malaysia-based Gurbani enthusiast. This is an edited version of her regular articles shared within a circle of fellow Sikhi seekers. The articles appear on Mondays and Thursdays.
* This is the opinion of the writer, organisation or publication and does not necessarily represent the views of Asia Samachar.
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